Openly Amazing

Filed Under (Goings on, Pictures) by Grace Einkauf on 28-02-2010

Such was the Houston National Open tournament! It was completely hectic and exhausting… but utterly wonderful and exhilarating! I was going to present you with a beautiful numbered list of the ups and downs of the tourney. But somehow, I don’t feel as if the Open was really a ‘list’ tournament at all. And anyway, as my dear friend Beth said, it was a tournament filled with ups and smaller ups, not ups and downs. So I give you… a slide show! :) I cannot be credited for about half of the pictures, as my camera was largely ignored throughout the tournament. Thanks to Sarah Maddux, Christina Hastings, the Maisanos, and Jessi Arnold for having awesome pics for me to use. ;-)

Define: Romanticism

Filed Under (Reflections, Writing) by Grace Einkauf on 14-02-2010

Do you see yourself in these words?

“Romanticism, perhaps the most sublime of afflictions, is a congenital psychic disorder whose symptoms are evident throughout life. In childhood the romantic writes poetry and dreams of grand and noble exploits. As a youth he embraces causes and fights for them with reckless bravery– which is easy enough for him to do, since he is unable to imagine that failure or defeat is possible. He falls in love once, passionately, and for life. He is spirited, gallant, and bold and sees high drama where others see blandness. He inspires admiration and loyalty in some, envy and hatred in others; he can be charming and witty but not genuinely humorous, for though life to him is always a joyful affirmation, it is never funny. Like the sentimentalist, the dreamer, and the do-gooder, the romantic is ruled by his heart rather than his head. Unlike them, he is also tough-minded and realistic, and that creates within him a turbulence they never know: he drives himself to excel, requires discipline of himself far beyond other men, is ever concerned with honor, sometimes excessively.” -Forrest McDonald

I really wish I’d written this definition. Because it’s dead on. Romanticism certainly can be the ‘most sublime of afflictions’. But all traits of character must be watched, because when used wrongly, they can become detrimental to one’s happiness along with such inherently bad ones as cowardice or vanity. Traits that aren’t absolute virtues like patience or kindness can easily be corrupted. Or simply ignored and left to simmer in a dark corner, breeding discontent or rebellion. In fact, I maintain that to keep your character uncorrupted, you must use every facet of it for a good purpose. What use is it to be an idealist if you do not find the best ideals to pursue? What good is it to be naturally diligent if you are not constantly working hard to further your most cherished principles and plans? As for the romantic, why dream up such beautiful fancies if you don’t even know where your heart lies? A romantic, an idealist… these will latch onto any promising opportunity or idea, if not checked. I’m not saying they should be checked, but one must be certain that the idea or opportunity which seems so fascinating is actually worth pursuing and fighting for. For example, Alexander Hamilton was, among other things, a romantic and an idealist. And he was one who chose his ideals carefully. Extensive study, varied experiences and acquaintances- these helped him weed out the unworthy causes and settle on the ones which had the most potential. Once he discovered those causes, he bent himself to work with a will, because he knew how noble his chosen calling was. Throughout his life, he gave himself to America- to her government and to her people (even though he was dissatisfied with them), and worked along with other valiant men to make his country the grandest in the world. He saddled his romanticism and made it work for him, instead of following blindly any path which presented itself in a pleasant light. And these idealistic and romantic tendencies of his didn’t hinder him- they assisted him in a great work. A fight that was worth winning.
Are you a ‘hopeless romantic’? I guess I would fit under that category as well. And you and I have no business hiding behind our dreams or sighing for impossibilities. Get out of yourself and make the world beautiful. I’m not saying ‘follow your dreams’. Because some of our dreams are not worth following, and might just lead us to a dreary dead end. But some of them are truly noble. How do you know which to pursue? Think of the Master of the mind, the Healer of the heart, the Savior of the soul. I think He might be able to tell you. =)

Inside

Filed Under (Writing) by Grace Einkauf on 10-02-2010

You walked into that bleak, white room,
And I was there inside your womb.
Blissfully secure… relaxed and unaware.

Voices, I heard hard footsteps,
Then, at the sound of your voice, I lept
Inside my growing heart. I was a work of art.

I clung to your melodious life,
As mine was being wrought inside.
And you were all my world… I needed nothing more.

I felt you recline, as if to sleep,
So comfortable, my dreams would be deep.
But I began to feel so weak… as never before.

Pain.. I didn’t know its ways
Until it grasped me in a daze.
And wrenched my world apart… away from your beating heart.

I don’t think you realized
Your choice meant death for another life,
But though I needed you… you chose your right to choose.

I needed you so desperately.
But you didn’t want to care for me.

Copyright © GraceE

DFW Qualifier

Filed Under (Goings on) by Grace Einkauf on 06-02-2010

You would not believe me if I told you how much fun I had at this tourney, or how much I learned. But a picture is worth a thousand words! And there are a lot of pictures in this slideshow. ;-)

Something new

Filed Under (Announcements) by Grace Einkauf on 01-02-2010

I’ve temporarily moved my blog over to JibeNow. I do not know how long ‘temporarily’ is. ;-) But I’ll enjoy being a part of the JN clan for now. My old blog at HSB will not be deleted, but new posts can be found here. Whoever you are, my small readership, I hope you will continue to benefit from the content!

Your devoted every-other-month-unless-she-cannot-possibly-avoid-it blogger =D,

~Grace